I just got done watching a documentary called “Somewhere Between”
It talks about children adopted from China and four of the stories are shared in the film.
In the end–one of the girls travels to China and actually meets her real biological parents. She says ….” I feel as though I don’t belong in America and I don’t belong in China. Essentially I am trapped somewhere between”.
Though I was not adopted and grew up in a huge community of Pakistani’s –sometimes I can understand the sentiment.
I am so lucky that I grew up with this extended family of “aunties and uncles” in Minnetonka. Not a weekend went by that I was not at a baby shower, birthday, graduation etc.
These boys and girls I grew up with–mostly all first generation Americans and I bonded greatly. They could understand the challenges of culture clash that would happen.
At these gatherings I never felt out of place or awkward in the slightest but when I went to my predominantly white school–I felt like I stuck out like a sore thumb.
When I went to college I was so pleased to find a huge group of Pakistani’s to again be around. I had friends from all different cultures and loved it! I quickly joined the Pakistani Student Association–the same one my parents started when they attended the University of Minnesota.
All my life I have tried to make friends and surround myself with people from all different cultures and backgrounds. I consider myself a very complex mix of East and West.
When I go visit Pakistan–I may look like everyone else but as soon as I open my mouth and speak Urdu people can tell my accent is American. They can also tell from the clothes I wear and my awe and curious nature about everything around me.
When I am here–I do fit in but I am not like most people around me. It doesn’t really bother me but it can be interesting if you have never experienced it.
I love aspects of both cultures and am blessed by my Pakistani background. I wouldn’t trade that for anything in the world..even if at times I do feel “somewhere between”
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This post was written by nchughtai on May 23, 2013