As you get older you start to realize more things about yourself and also about others. For instance (sad but true) many people whom you think you know very well can turn out to be the complete opposite. People will lie, cheat, hide things and hurt you and many of them don’t have much remorse for it either. You can use these bitter life experiences to grow if you really see them as blessings. I know it’s very  very hard to do.

I am learning this more day by day. The people you thought you knew are sometimes the very ones who have the most potential to hurt you.

Case in point is the text I received yesterday from Mr. Disappearing Act which was obviously not meant for me. It was a strange, upsetting text that referenced wanting to call a certain person named “Ardis” because he was having a bad day. When I inquired what the text was about I instead got a long winded excuse about him having a virus on his phone. What person gets a virus on their phone that sends random texts? I knew in my gut it was a lie.

Fast forward a few hours and I get another text about how much he cares about me, wants to see me and wants to hang out. I demand honesty and he sticks to the same excuse about a virus on his phone. Finally after all day of waiting and wondering I get an honest answer from him. He says that yes that text was for a friend and he accidentally sent it to me instead.

My question is why lie? It’s amazing how easily a lie rolls off someone’s tongue.

And this Ardis person? Well it’s apparently a guy who supplies him with some sort of pills that make him feel better. I am very glad he sent me that text by mistake. It makes me realize just what type of a person he is. It’s not even the text that is so upsetting that it is the lying. If more people were just honest about things the world would be a much better place.

Luckily I have other people in my life that are wonderful and honest and trustworthy.

Don’t forget today to recognize the people that BRING YOU UP and not down. They deserve it! Have a wonderful day

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When things in m life seem crazy and upside down, I can always rely on the people below to love me unconditionally: My family. Over the weekend I attended Robby’s Senior Brunch with my sister and parents. He goes to a small school called -The International School and many of the kids he is graduating with are ones he has known since Kindergarten.

We saw baby pictures of the kids and then everyone got the chance to share memories. There were many tears and happy memories. Everyone took turns with the mic and then it was Hana and my turn. We always like to make people laugh so we shared the story of potty training Robby and how he would always come home with a different kids uniform on because he had wet his pants. Everyone got a huge laugh out of it and Robby wasn’t too mad at us

Robby's Senior Brunch

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Lately I have been giving a lot of thought to my life. I have so many things running through my head and so many things I want to accomplish in such a short period of time. In no particular order I have been considering:

1.) Going to Grad School

2.) Really diving into and making time for writing a book

3.) Starting/Joining a fun young professional group in the Cedar Valley

4.) Making the people in my life feel special

5.) Learning new things at work and finding a mentor who can guide me in my career

6.) Finding a workout plan that really works for me and sticking to it

These are just a few of the things I want to accomplish. I have known people who are able to juggle so much and get so many things done but it’s something I struggle with. I have many days where I am so exhausted when I leave work that all I want to do is just go home and rest but I need balance in all the things I do.  Life is short and I want to do so much. It’s time for me to really focus on myself and make myself the best possible person I can. I hope I am on my way

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Our Master Control operator is leaving for another job in Omaha! We will miss you Kylie! Thank you for all you have done!

Bye Kylie!

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Good thing my mom doesn’t read my blog or I wouldn’t be able to write about this! For the last hour I have been carefully constructing a online photo book for her for Mother’s Day. What started as a simple idea to print off a picture of us and frame it turned into a major task of making an entire photo book that she can cherish forever. That of course involved going through my 88 albums on facebook to find the best pictures of her and I together and writing appropriate captions.

I already know she will cry when she sees it. Our entire family is a very emotional one and we all get it from her. I will admit that I am guilty of fighting with my mom over little things that I regret for hours and days afterward. I feel extra bad and want her to have a wonderful weekend with us kids. She really is an amazing woman who is full of strength and dignity. I know everyone says that about their own mom but I will say it anyways

She was strict with us girls growing up but we always knew how much she loved us. When we would fight she would always say “I don’t understand your language as well as you and maybe that is why you don’t understand what I am trying to say”.

Truth me told she understood just fine and understood us girls more than we could ever give her credit for. Love you mom. Thank you for all you have done for us!

My mom!

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I just spent the last hour and a half on Skype with my sister. Not to just chat but to carefully plan out our little brother’s Graduation party invite! We are SO excited about it! We decided we wanted the card to be different and fun so we came up with the following quote off the top:

“He grew up so fast..quick as a wink

The heart of our family..the missing link

Pokemon Power Rangers and his favorite color blue

Now we invite you to celebrate his journey to the U!”

We also made a catchy email where people can RSVP called Chughtai.Throwdown!

Bottom line? He is going to kill us.

But with two big sisters who are crazy and totally in love with him what does he expect? The party will be in Downtown Minneapolis near Lake Calhoun with lots of food, fun and a Bhangra DJ all night long! This is our chance to show him how much we love him and how proud we are of him. Guaranteed the night will be filled with tears from all of us! Our baby is all grown up! Where on earth did the time go? Love you Robby!

All grown up and ready for college!

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This weekend I did something completely out of the ordinary for me. I decided to stay in and focus on myself instead of planning and cramming a million things into the span of two and a half days. If this seems like not so big of a deal consider the fact that I can honestly not remember the last time I sat at home on a Friday night. It may have been sometime in Eugene. Regardless it was a long, long time ago and I am not used to it.

My friend Shenah (the guru) says that I need to keep myself busy to keep from having too much time to think. Perhaps she is right. She would urge me to stay home and enjoy a night in once in awhile in Eugene while she was living in Portland but alas I never listened. So Friday night I decided I would try it out firsthand. No getting dressed up, no making plans, no being urged to go out. Just staying home and relaxing. In her exact words she would say “what are you running away from?”

It ended up being far more wonderful than I expected.

A thunderstorm was brewing and I had the Pandora blues station on. I invited a friend over and we got out the grill to have a late night BBQ. It was good for the body and soul.

Saturday was a similar situation. Just stayed in, ran some errands and didn’t make any plans. Both days I woke up early and had energy to get so much accomplished. Now here it is Sunday night and I really feel like I HAD a weekend instead of the ones where they just fly by and you go to work on Monday more exhausted than you were on Friday.

I think I could get used to staying in more.

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The weekend is finally here and it’s ending on a high note. What an emotional, tiring week it has been but today I am feeling recharged and ready to face life moving forward. I am thinking a relaxing weekend is in store. Maybe some shopping, a little cooking and treating myself as much as possible.  I went to the wonderful Cedar Falls library yesterday and stocked up on a ton of good books. I haven’t done that in ages! It used to be my normal routine to go to the library on Sundays in Eugene but ever since moving here I have not had much of a chance.  Nothing really beats curling up in warm PJ’s with a good book that you just cannot put down.

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As noted in my previous posts this girl cannot stop eating. By eating I mean stuffing my face and eating the unhealthiest things I can possibly get my hands on. Case in point was the sad scene at the Fareway this afternoon where I glanced in my cart and saw the items that included flaming hot cheetos, a fajita chicken frozen pizza and a six pack of beer.

I glanced around in horror and then shrugged…”oh well” as I proceeded to the check out.

This nonsense will stop on Monday guaranteed but I couldn’t help but rip the cheeto bag open as I was driving home. As I pulled into my driveway I saw my good friend and neighbor Don headed my way from down the street. I quickly hid the bag and made sure I didn’t have a random cheeto in my hair before I got out of my car.

I guess the whole point of this blog entry is to talk about how awesome my neighbors are. I got sidetracked talking about Cheetos.

Don is going to read this and call me crazy but I have to talk about him just a little bit. Don and I have become really close friends and he is someone I can always trust to give me wonderful advice! Just this past week he has been there to listen and offer up tons of wisdom from his own experiences in life. He really is amazing and I am not the only one who thinks so. I run into his friends all the time who say the same exact thing about him. He helps anyone in need and I feel so comfortable knowing he is just down the street if I should need anything at all!

Bobbie who lives across the street is wonderful too. She is always waving a friendly hello and looking out for me!

Bottom line is that I love where I live but even if my place was a rundown shack I would probably still stay in this neighborhood. I am lucky to have such great friends nearby who make living here so great.

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Finality can be hard but it helps when you can share your feelings fully and completely.  That is exactly what I did today. I opened up my email, hit compose and pounded on the keys for about an hour. I expressed every disappointment, every emotion, every feeling and got it all out of my system. Now I can never say that I didn’t tell Mr. Disappearing Act everything I needed to say. Then quick as a wink I got out my phone, took a deep breath and hit delete on his number. I feel somewhat better. I had tears as I composed the email but it can be very therapeutic  to know you have expressed all you can and it is out of your control. Deep breath. I am moving forward.

I am surrounded by positive wonderful people at work. Eileen listens to me vent daily and gives me ample hugs, Jeff took me out to breakfast today and let me vent over a pancake the size of a basketball. (I ate every single bite with extra butter)

I have supportive friends and wonderful people in my life. I am blessed in so many ways. I believe the Universe will bring me a great life and that I am on track to reach my full potential.

On a side note I cannot thank you blog readers enough for listening to me vent through this medium. You all have provided lots of support and it’s so wonderful to have you all follow my journey. When I first started this blog I wondered how personal I should be. Maybe I should stick to safe topics and not reveal too much of my personal life. Then I thought–no way. This is the real me and I owe it to myself to be real and to you to not be fake. So be prepared for the good, the bad, the nitty gritty and the awesome. Good things are ahead I can feel them (at least right at this moment)

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