The irony of life is that if you give it enough time it will all make sense. The sad part is that you spend a lot of your time trying to make sense of the troubles, heartaches and frustrations but if you give it time you will usually find an answer. Whenever I find myself stuck in a situation or difficult life event, I try to see the big picture. I try and tell myself that eventually this will all figure itself out. This of course is a lot easier said than done.

Case in point for me would be moving to Iowa. When I was going through the stress of moving and the sadness of leaving friends behind I couldn’t see beyond my immediate feelings. I only felt the confusion and constantly questioned my decision. Now three months later I can see things in a completely different light. Now I see that coming here was a wonderful thing for me. I can see how healthy this move was for me personally and professionally. I had a lot of difficult nights. Lots of tears and lots of self reflection. One question plagued me constantly. Am I doing the right thing?

When I boarded the plane to come to Minneapolis from Eugene I felt sick to my stomach. I even had several viewers come to the airport to see me off. What was I doing leaving the comfort of a place where everything felt so right? As I sat in the plane my heart started racing and the enormity of the situation hit me. I had two options–to stay and continue to live in comfort with little growth in a place where I was quite happy OR take a risk and see what would happen. The risk won.

Now everyday I see more of the big picture. I am meeting people who are becoming closer daily. I am able to see my family whenever I want and I have a job that challenges me and is making me a stronger anchor daily. Do I see the whole picture of why I am here yet? No..but I have nothing but faith that I will in time and I cannot wait to see what happens.

Posted under January 2012