I am back after a fun weekend with my family and boy was it a whirlwind. From a graduation ceremony to sharing memories and all the build up that went into it all…it’s all so bittersweet. This morning I woke up the bro bright and early to drop him off back at his now former school so he could take off on another Senior trip.
As we drove to the International School it felt normal as if I was dropping him off for another day of school but in reality he was boarding a bus and heading off to Wisconsin for some fun in the sun. I wonder how it feels to know you will never come back to a place where you spent 18 years of your life. Pretty amazing how resilient we are as human beings. We can adjust and deal with just about anything that comes our way.
I thought about this a lot after I dropped Robby off and was driving back to the Cedar Valley. Just two weeks ago I was anxiously waiting for phone calls from Mr. Disappearing Act and now in a short 14 days, I have little to no feeling whatsoever for him or that situation. The only real feeling I have at this point is anger. A type of solid bitterness you could say but as far as hurt…that is diminishing quickly. Even when I feel it coming on all I have to do is think about the events that occurred the past few weeks and instantly I am back to being angry. I know it’s a process and daily it will get easier and better but it’s amazing what we can overcome and how we can bounce back from hard times.
We are amazing, strong beings and the things we can overcome are pretty remarkable.
We can’t rush the healing process. It takes time and we must embrace every step of it. I am ready for it all. I already feel so much better about the future. As I see Robby walk across that stage graduating I see all over again what is REALLY important in life. Family and the people who show you they care. It’s really that simple 
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This post was written by nchughtai on June 4, 2012
Natasha,
Let go of the anger. It is a waste of time. He could care less that he hurt your heart and it just brings you down. Keep smiling and shake it off every time you start to think about it.
this too shall pass.
Natasha, so sorry to hear about your breakup with Mr. Act. That’s right he was probably just an Act. I feel kind of bad now that I gushed on at the My Waterloo Days 5K about my upcoming marriage. But I certainly have my share of war stories! I hope it doesn’t take you 53 years to find the love of your life like it did me. Congratulations and best wishes to your bro Robby on his graduation! And Kudos to YOU for realizing what really matters in life!
I’m sorry Natasha, but as much as you say your over him, the way you talk about him still, dear, your not. Your hurting big time.
Terri is so right, she couldn’t have said it better.
It makes me feel bad when I read what your emotionally going through.
Good Luck, Mr. Right will come along sooner than you think (if you stop thinking about Mr. Wrong!)